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We Took a Little Trip – Part III

A co-worker had mentioned that I needed to visit the French Market, as it was a fascinating place that offered many splendid and unique wares.  So, my little stroller-bound companion and I ventured into the Market and took a visual sampling of what could be found there.  The multinational vendors sold bananas and pineapples and peppers and bottles of Tabasco sauce and shirts and handbags and incense trays and handmade jewelry and spices and cookbooks and travel-books and novels and dresses and carven statues of African fertility gods and figures of entwined, copulating threesomes and cigarette lighter cases and leather hats and neon lights of any someone’s favorite malt beverage and rainbow colored snow-cones and preserved, baby alligator skulls and who knows what else, maybe even some pickled or barbecued monkey feet.  All in all, it was interesting and there were probably some things for sale in the French Market that we couldn’t have purchased at the local shopping mall…and the crush of multicolored tourists and visitors and locals and vendors were generally polite as they made way for our stroller and my sweaty-browed self.

Aside from visiting the downtown area of New Orleans, specifically, the French Quarter and its immediate surroundings, the Little One and I also cruised through most of the central and eastern parts of the city.  We went up and down the inner city byways, and drove down the neighborhood roads that connected the eastern and central parts of the city; the main avenues, and streets, and roads, and paved corridors, and highways and bridges, and every little bit of roadway that we could find that we had not yet traversed.  And in our meanderings through the city, I couldn’t but help noticing the peoples, yes peoples, that I saw along the streets and standing upon the corners and walking into and out of the various homes and hang-outs and stores and businesses that we passed.  I don’t know if my companion took much notice of what and whom we passed, aside from the overhanging trees and signs that may have had enough elevation to enter his line of sight from his perch in that rear-facing car seat, but I was near amazed with the numbers of variously hued black and brown people that we encountered.  Not only while driving through the downtown area, but in the rest of the city as well.  I can’t remember much from when I lived in South Carolina as a child, at least not in this area of thought, but I’m sure that if I did, my memories would include a vast population of our countrymen and women of color; so I must say that, in what I can properly arrange as my clearest memory, this excursion into New Orleans proper exposed me to more black people than I have ever been exposed to in my lifetime.  It is just that, aside from my forays into South Phoenix in my days as a disease investigator with the county health department, I’ve not felt so ‘white’ before.  In every store I entered during our five-day stay in New Orleans, I was in the distinct minority.  Whether it was in the Walgreens, Pizza Hut, the Save-Co grocery store, Wal-Mart, or the Exxon and other sundry filling stations, there were vastly more people of color than there were those of white or fair skin.  I couldn’t help but wonder if this was what the shoe feels like on the other foot, so to speak.  At any rate, I/we encountered no problems because of my/our whiteness, but I did happen to notice many averted eyes, and when the others’ eyes did meet mine, their faces were more often blank than expressing anything; more to think about, more to contemplate in the weighing of textbook against reality and assessing how things continue to be and are.  In receiving those blank looks or veiled glares, if that’s what they were, was I a receptacle for their rage or was it more of a mirroring of what they thought was in my heart?  Did the color of my skin mean that I harbored ill against them or thought less of them?  Were the years of their collective histories more alive to them than the one white man in front of them who had neither caused nor tolerated their affliction, or was I reading too much into the nothingness or possibilities in their eyes?  I don’t know that books could or would reveal to me the truths that lay in the reality of the expressions in those people’s eyes.  I don’t know that I could ever be more to them than another white guy who may be as full of the same possibilities as the other ones have been, and without coming to know the individuals whose eyes met mine, the plausibility of them remaining a group of stereotypes became that much easier.  They will be as black to me, with all that entails, as I will be white to them, equally, and with the full freight of that meaning.  But that wasn’t necessarily so.  I knew they were individuals with their personal and collective histories and I knew more than to expect them to embrace me in my whiteness – because I was also aware of the histories and the perceived stereotypes and the afflictions or oppressions that have through repetition become more reality to them than I could possibly imagine – so I know those looks weren’t personal; I just found them interesting, that’s all.

On the last night of our visit to the New Orleans area, my wife and Boogie and I were invited to join my wife’s training-session-colleagues at the house of one of the professors, rather, at the house of ‘the’ professor and guide and mentor and god, none other than C.Z. himself, for a bit of a soiree or social event, dinner, gathering, etc.  So we continued on our little trip and ventured into the Metarie Country Club on the completely opposite side of the valley of New Orleans from where our motel was situated.  Again, the greenery was nigh unto overwhelming with the castled homes nestled in and among and beneath the cathedral-canopied hollows created by the over-branching and covering and sheltering growth of ancient and massive trees of various and unknown kinds, again with the Spanish moss and ivy and vines and flowers and bushes and rope-like greenery hanging in every which and sundry way.

The beauty of the country club neighborhood was the redeeming feature of the evening as I was nearly lightheaded and shaken with anxiety in my discomfort among the high minds and brows of academia and psychology in the home of the priest-god-professor.  I felt like the proverbial guppy in the cerebral sea of monster fishes that swam and mingled around me…while they were kind and gentle in their responses to my “Um, yes, I work in 9-1-1 and police dispatch…and yes, it’s Very Exciting!”  While mine was an honorable profession that could speak of a noble calling, had I had that calling, I was wishing that I could detail my previous work experiences as a communicable disease investigator with the health department…I felt that I could then at least ‘appear’ to be educated and smart and intelligent and worthy of their attention and interest (please note that when I was hired, my former job as a disease investigator required nothing more than ‘two years of working with the public,’ but it sounded nearly academic or scientific…please also note that many of my 9-1-1 and dispatch friends, associates, and co-workers are educated and smart and intelligent and worthy…and also have their university degrees…and some have graduate degrees)….and…I had Boogie on my hip for much of the time and he served well as a comfort and as a conversation starter, diversion, release…and I sweated profusely at first and then less as my anxiety heightened and lessened and waxed serious and waned again as people spoke to me and then walked away in their academically modified and pretentious gait of importance or disinterest or whatever socially coiffed manner it was that they had…or maybe didn’t have…as it was I who was so painfully aware of my simple-ness or low-caste-ness…I didn’t and don’t know what I was doing there…and I’m sure they’re all very nice people…just more well-rounded than I was/am and/or might ever be…but I think I liked me and my dog liked me and Boogie liked me and my ascending wife liked me…and the day and the evening were the fourth day…and we drove the many and random miles back to our Motel-6 Studio from the Metarie Country Club and were reminded again of our chosen place in life and loved it and liked it and were happy to be nearing the end of the week and our return westward again into a life and place we knew and so.

The drive homeward was gone and long and wearing upon our senses and minds and bodies and the sights and sensations were dulled somewhat in the passing of miles and moments.  The green was still green, but much of the luster had dulled and many of the smells of fecund richness had come to rot and brought their vapors and ill-ease with them.  The poverty spoke louder than the hues of the beautiful people and the cracks in the roadway were louder than the new tire flashing could soften…miles upon miles and over-filled garbage cans and gator-hunting tournaments and slave-grave-plantations combined with the distance we were away from our other loved ones and life and our known selves with what and who we were, in and to those lives and loved ones that made us long for those things and people and selves and the miles couldn’t pass quickly enough.

There was no white VW Pasat with its 45 year-old woman trying to control the speed with which we left that eastern destination and we didn’t marvel so at the pastel and dirt colored homes on the southern banks of the grand river with its teeming greenery and life…and our hungers weren’t much abated by the chicken-stuffed fajita pitas and ultimate cheese burgers and onion rings that filled and locked our transported stomachs in our emerald or forest green Lumina that carried us none too swiftly homeward to that metropolis whose buildings and smaller mountains and hills and urban volcanic shit and waste and detritus welcomed us back with arms and highways that comfort in ways that seem absurd in their warm familiarity…those roadside rest-stops, bridges, mileposts, building lights, and bougainvillea…and that much closer.

We were driving home, riding home, passing homeward from the green richness of a strange land with strange people, those maybe in genetic swamps or ponds that have a flesh-taste similar to our own, but so distant and removed from us in our everything that they aren’t and cannot be or become us in our stated selves and kindred somebodies, people we thought about and left behind; we were going home to our other children and their arms and stories and questions and wonderings at what we saw and felt, Boogie and I, as we crossed those twenty six miles over Lake Pontchartrain, and back again, with nothing but water beside and beneath us and the and my wonderment at an oh-shit moment that never came but was looming with each rotation of the tires in those many concrete and elevated miles…our children who regaled us with tales of their own parties and celebrations in our parent-emptied home for the weekend, and police visits and bottle-caps in the backyard grass and other kinds and types of whatnot…our children who called us sobbing in their heartbreak at being interrogated and fired for misconduct when they had done nothing wrong and we were 23 hours away and could do nothing but listen to their sad story and…our children who were adults and kids who welcomed us from our travels and things seen and felt in lands not ours nor theirs…and we were home again among those things and people who comfort us when the need for comfort was upon us…after we took a little trip.

We Took a Little Trip – Part II

The west side of Texas, coming from El Paso, was nothing to inspire one to dream about selling the proverbial farm and packing all the kids and dogs and the plow into the truck and moving out there.  It didn’t bring that dream to my mind anyway.  But the closer we came to San Antonio, and then to Houston, with the rolling, grassy hillsides, and the scrub and tall Oak trees and the Cottonwood, riverside forests and the rivers and streams and ponds and draws and grazing cows and deer and lush greenery, I finally understood what they, whoever they were and are, meant when they said that Texas is ‘God’s Country.’  If there was a god who would make a countryside to his or her liking and if that god were then going to stick it in Texas and make it something that the environment there would accommodate, I guess this would have been the area in which that would have happened.  I felt like bursting, literally exploding with all the greenery around me.  I just couldn’t believe that a place like this could exist when I presently live in a desert where we have to import water and greenery and palm trees and swimming pools, and Texas has all of this stuff naturally – minus the palm trees, which is only fitting.  Of course, I’m exaggerating a little bit, but I didn’t remember the area being so damn green and full of lush, exploding life.  But it’s been over 20 years since I was there and I haven’t seen flora of this kind in quite a while.  And it wasn’t too humid on our drive through that verdant heaven, which was probably good for my opinion of the place, for if we had driven through there a couple months later, I might not have esteemed that part of Texas so highly.


The minutes and miles and exits and overpasses and billboards and trees and bushes and hours and cigarette butts and invitations to eat passed as they will on a trip of this length, some messages heeded and some objects not seen while others were noted and catalogued away in the recesses or prominences of our minds.  Conversations came and went and ideas and thoughts were spoken and pondered and not spoken or withheld then given as the situations and specifics required or cautioned.  The cabin and belongings and Boogie heard without notice the exchanges and quietudes and didn’t mark those brow-furrowing drops of syllables and throat-clearings and swallowings of messages meant and mistaken.  It was hopes and desires and my side and relationships and sex and her side and commitment and the Working Model of the Child and nursing and I don’t know what you think about a lot of the time because you don’t talk to me very often and maybe you’re depressed and I assure you it has nothing to do with you and when am I going to finally be done with school and the sundry not spoken things of wonderings and my dog died in the fall of ’94 and I just don’t know if some passion or love died with him.  Words spoken to and from our destination elicited thoughts not voiced and feelings that were touched in the wrong way and lacked quick amends to right the immediate wrongs and it’s easier not to talk sometimes, but the minutes and miles and navigated hours of our passing became part of the texture and memories of the moments shared and the time we had, pressed and released with anxiety and ease and coming ‘round again to the same different subjects of the one who’s doing really well and the brown-eyed angel and the red-headed baby and sex and relationships and cunnilingus and evolution and the power of a white Pasat driver and the Joshua Trees and would you be able to get me another bottle of Starbuck’s as I swallow another thought of whatever and my companion quietly disadjusts herself into the back seat as we passed a legion of blooming Century plants to quietly open the ice-chest to hand me the dripping bottle of elixir that just didn’t seem to contain as much as I thought it should.


Louisiana came with the breeze and washings of many winds across the hood of the car and swirled over and ‘round the windows and left in a curl behind our confusedly swift and illegal passing through the remnants of a Texas that decided speed-limits while nippin’ at the ol’ cider jug.  Why would it be considered safe to drive 75 through the swerving, mountainous, four-laned freeway that is often crossed by the many species of wildlife that live in the hills surrounding San Antonio and then be thought dangerous to drive above 55 on the six-laned, wide-open expanse of roadway that poured into the minimally populated area in a certain locale between Houston and Beaumont and then into ‘Historic’ Orange and then into Louisiana?  I might have some of the names or the particular region mix-matched or otherwise improperly construed, but the four and six lane expanses and their surrounding populations are accurate – which led to some question as to the process for determining the freeway speeds throughout the state – an unimportant subject, but one that occupied my mind momentarily, or a bit longer, as we passed through those particular zones.


Anyway, Louisiana greeted us with more greenery and ponds and lakes and rivers and bogs and swamps and streams and living and rotting green of sizes and dimensions that were astounding and awe inspiring as few things have so been to me.  I suppose the verdant fecundity of the scenery in this part of our trip was equal to, or at least on a similar plane as the splendor and goddamn majesty that I experienced during my visits to Lake Powell.  There was just something so soul-driven about the beauty encountered there.  Yes, there were slimes of green algae and putrescent decay in the backwater regions where life and rot were teeming within a cell membrane’s reach of one another, and dead raccoons and porcupines along the roadway, but damn if it wasn’t beautiful!  Live Oak and multifarious pines and vines and hanging, Spanish moss and water lilies and ponds covered with flowering, cranberry-like vegetation and blue water and green and brown, roiling, surging rivers with steep climbing bridges and trestles and elevated roadways spanning swamps and lakes and rivers and streams with boats and ships and barges and drawbridges and paddlewheeled river-boats; all alluring and inviting and seducing in their own tidewater fashion.  Come and live and breathe and multiply among us.  The billboards boasted of crawfish farms and air-boat rides and gator hunts and aged, historic plantations where our imaginations had to refrain themselves from hearing the shadows of the crack of bullwhips and the clanking of manacles and the shouting of color-ridden epithets of derision and three-hundred-plus years of suffering.  And how could we explain, or how would they explain the reasoning that allows them to worship and sing passionate praises to the god of their captors instead of the great Mother whom they worshiped in the land of their natural and symbolic nativity and who gave life to every and each thing living?  That’s something that I can’t explain for this derided and troubled and strong and proud and beautiful people.


The Monday afternoon rush-hour of New Orleans didn’t compare to that of Phoenix and our vicinity, but a parking lot and crawl on a freeway was as frustrating there as it was here.  It’s a freeway!  So, be free and drive!  Damn!  It’s not like I had to get somewhere, but I was a bit tired of sitting behind the wheel, so the sooner we could find 1440 Canal Street, the Tidewater Plaza, the sooner we could find what would be our home for the next five days.  The Tidewater Plaza, or building if you will, was/is about three or four blocks north of the northern boundary of the French Quarter, and Canal Street is the western border.  So, the streets were peopled with individuals who had recently left their work-sites or were en-route the Quarter and the places where they would sit or stand or walk and watch the white and brown and black and yellow people who came to visit.  And, of course, those people were walking along Canal Street, as well, holding their purses and bags and cameras close to their timid or robust, touristy selves, or they weren’t. 


I had never been to New Orleans and had, therefore, never seen the French Quarter, so the experience was new to me in its entirety.  I think I probably had expectations that the architecture and the décor would be something unique unto itself and the people might be the same, cut from a mold unlike any other.  But, people being people, as they are, the denizens of the Quarter seemed, to me anyway, to be the same kind of people that we have in the cities and areas of those cities with which I was familiar.  There were strange ones and normal ones and everyone else who fit somewhere in the middle of that broad and general range.  I suppose there may have been more artists and craftsmen and vendors of unique wares than one would find in our locale, but shops are shops and cafes and restaurants and bars and hideaways are all of a sort, and only the goods and foods were different.  While we have Mexican and Spanish features in our area, New Orleans had eateries and shops particular to Cajun or Creole definitions.  Some of the buildings were beautifully maintained and the characteristics or charm one thinks of when New Orleans is mentioned, shone brightly in the ornate ironwork and balcony gardens.  The streets and walkways were sometimes cobbled in brick or aged concrete.  When a gate was open, one could look into the interior courtyard or inner alleyway between the buildings and see that they are indeed ancient and sometimes decrepit behind and beneath the facades of careful paint and repair or maintenance work.  To be continued….


We Took a Little Trip – Part I

We finally managed to leave when it was approaching five o’clock in the morning.  I repeated to myself a couple times that I was glad that I had been able to leave work at two in the morning instead of when my shift ended at seven.  It’s hard to say when we might have left the house if I had left work at my scheduled time.  It took us only about 15 to 20 minutes to actually pack what we needed into the suitcases, but my traveling companion had yet to finish some paperwork, part of which still needed to be delivered to a co-worker, this same morning, after we were finally engaged in leaving our little town and setting out to meet the world.


The morning had a familiar hue and ambiance.  It was not unusual for me to have left for work, even if it had several years in the past, at nearly five in the morning, while it was usually half an hour or so after that time, and there were many times, also several years in the past, when I had taken my beloved to the airport at this same time, back when she was flying. 


The car had been loaded with care and all the important things that would be needed in the cabin of the car, during what was reported to be a 26 hour drive, had been thoughtfully stowed within hand’s or arm’s reach.  We made the short detour from our route to the freeway to deliver that paperwork and then pointed ourselves east and began our journey.  I believe it was a solid five-thirty before we were actually progressing, directly, on the freeway, toward our destination, and the sun was still below its bedroom horizon.  It’s essence made the sky first a shade of not-dark and then one of barely-light, finally bringing itself to the healthy state of certain-gray running into morning-white, and then full orange-light as our star finally pulled back the curtains from her rest and shined full upon us. 


I had been awake since about five o’clock the previous afternoon and wondered how long my night and day were going to be.  The plan was for me to drive till we got to El Paso, where my bride would take the wheel and I would try to get however many hours of sleep the riding and baby would allow me.  I guess the Starbuck’s chilled coffee and the sodas I had consumed were a bit stronger than I imagined they would be, and served to keep me awake far longer than I had anticipated.  At any rate, I drove till we reached San Antonio, at seven-thirty in the evening, where we decided to call it a day. 


Bottle after bottle of Starbuck’s worked their special magic as we progressed through our Arizona and headed into New Mexico, and the great Texas beyond, and finally into Louisiana and the New Orleans that was our destination.  The drive from home to Tucson, and then outside the realm of these familiars, was uneventful and the light to moderate traffic allowed me to take-in the passing landscape without taking too much attention from the roadway and my driving. 

The desert greens were muted and then bright as the sun rose with her waking and illuminated our part of the world.  Mesquite bosques flourished in the open desert and in the tucked-away canyons and crevasses of mighty rock and the lava detritus afterbirth that reminds us of our region’s violent beginning.  Stands of Palo Verde and sweeping hills covered with forests of Creosote, Desert Broom, Prickly Pear, Cholla, Barrel and Saguaro Cacti caught my morning eye as we sped along the highway.  Buzzards and hawks were overhead and Cactus Wrens, Quail, and a score of other unknown feathered creatures scuttled and fluttered from branch to branch and stalk to stem as we sped past their homes.  Hills and rocks and canyons and slopes and washes of rivers and plateaus and crags and buttes and promontories of majestic, dizzying height and ancient, blown volcanic craters’ remains and the sun and breeze and gusts of blown, heated wind, pushing along the desiccated Russian Thistled tumbleweed and the mini, tornadic dust-devil spinning around the skeletal remains of the downed Saguaro whose ribs and roots and falling skin return to our Mother and nourish the little verminous denizens and passersby; and these are all ours and yours and us in one.


We passed the stopping places of a people gone-by and looked and saw the things they left behind, the homes and workshops and bars and sheds and corrals and memories of things that we didn’t know, that used to be, in times not ours but theirs and then.  The gray, sun-bleached, wooden remains of those sheds and houses and lean-tos and shouts and yells and whispers and faint yet urgent baby cries and sighs and groanings of comfort and rut and despair and the mumblings of bucolic weddings and funerals and birthings and dyings beneath the apple and peach trees that had been brought-in special from back east, and the tears of joy and hate and disappointment and heartbreak leaving raindrop shadows and images mixed in the grain of the split boards and shards of memory-broken window-panes that throw their prismatic gleam onto the two lonely, letter-faded crosses inside the wrought-iron, grated fences that adorn the resting souls’ resting-places; and we kept on our way as we had a place awaiting us and memories to make. 


Not too many soda cans and way too many cigarette butts adorned the interstate that took us where we were going.  Roadside relief and stations for gas and food and cellophane-wrapped, conjoined, spoon-fork mutations and a fancy, six-dollar car-wash wax-job to remove the bugs’ remains were cast along our path, and invitations given to dine with Wendy and old McDonald and Taco Bell and Whataburger and Taco-cabana and Burger King and Pizza Hut or to have some home-made single-serving-sized pecan pies from one of the locals who knows the manager of the Texaco or the Chevron, or Exxon or Pilot or Giant or even Joe from Joe’s Gas Station and Eatery…and we brought all that carbonated, fruit-flavored, bottled water from Wal-Mart and were content as could be; even Boogie, in the back seat, cradled and imprisoned in his rear-facing infant-carrier with the chest clip that wasn’t engineered well enough to prevent a six-month-old from figuring out how to remove it from its safe, collared position and use it as a teething toy.  The little-one was a happy traveling-companion who had hundreds of open-mouthed, toothless, slobbery, eye scrunching, nose crinkling smiles, and those, along with the miles and miles that became ours with the highway that erased the new-rubber flashing from the tires, and the gas-mileage and wind and uphill and downhill grades all combined to bring us nearer to New Orleans and farther away from the comfort of that and those which and whom comfort us when the need for comfort is upon us.


We had passed Casa Grande and then Tucson, the childhood home of my bride and still the home of both sets of our in-laws and other relations and the place where we say we all come-from; and then left for and through windblown, hazy, sandy-aired, sneeze-inducing Wilcox and were greeted by Welcome to New Mexico and visit happy Lordsburg and Deming and Las Cruces and were suddenly in Texas and El Paso.


My bride and I, we wondered at the disparity that is delineated by the verdant flow of the Rio Grande, and considered how we felt when we looked across that watery divide and wondered how they felt when they looked back at us.  Do they wonder at us?  Do they see the magnificent homes on the side of the hill-mountain that lies to the north of the freeway and overlooks their pastel and dirt colored homes that are stuck to the opposing hillside to the south of that grand river?  We know they must look.  We know they must dream, for they come across the water at various costs and become us.  They become us in time and place and clothing and food-consumed and cars driven and children spawned and gods worshiped and prayed to and scorned for the troubles and inequalities and misplaced dreams that someone and somebodies isn’t and aren’t allowing them to pursue as fully and with as much rapidity as they would choose for themselves.


And that river area was ever so green.  The water must have flowed so much farther out from its bank than we could see, for the life-exuding greenery extended for a hundred yards in both directions, beyond and beside the fence and dreams and pastel and dirt colored homes.  Huge trees of Cottonwood and Salt Cedar and happy bushes and grasses and shrubs and more trees and probably some fish and shrimp and bugs and life and reeds and living and flowing and the taking of life and dreams away and bringing them back again; to cross and begin anew, something that we don’t have to cross a river to do.  And so we don’t, sometimes.


The road brought construction zones where the fines were double when workers were present and the little, white VW Pasat that just couldn’t go one mile over the posted 55 because the driver’s white, 45-year-old-female-self just had to control something and we were in the position to be controlled behind her, and that’s not too uncommon.  We wanted to go faster and she wanted us to go not one mile an hour faster than 55 of those miles, with her as our guide and conscience and protector of our finances – and a cranky bitch without a smile.  Didn’t she know that New Orleans and its French Quarter and Storyville were calling me?  Didn’t she know that C.Z. was calling, calling for you and for me, rather for my bride, to come and learn about the Working Model of the Child?  Couldn’t she sense all of that by the bugs on our windshield and the fact that I had my lights on, hopefully bothering her in her rear-view mirror as she glared backwards at me with her ash-blond eyelash-ed gray eyes?  It really wasn’t that big of a deal – just another example of power distribution and usage, those who have it and those of us who had to drive behind the white Pasat.  To be continued….